I am a dancer. You only have to know me for a day or two to find this out. I love to talk about it. It just fascinates me to know end. The costumes, the lights, the bizarre movements and make-up...amazing. Dance has become a considerable part of my life; I literally can't imagine my life without some aspect of dance in it. Now, I'm not saying I'm amazing at it or that I'm better than anyone else at my level; actually, there are many, many people better than me. I don't even do it competitivelly, though I'd love to. But...I just love it. That's all there is to it.
I've always thought that some of the appeal to it was the sense of being able to "get out of my own skin." A lot of actor's use this cliche, but as I am shy and can barely open my mouth in regular conversation, I very much doubt I can do it on a stage. (I've tried to sing in front of people on a stage...ok when I was 4, panic attack when I was 12.)
But truely, I think I love dance just for the thrill I get from it. There's a sense of pride to it. That feeling of " Hey look audience! I can do this...can you?" There's that sense of beauty. Every move I make feels good, physically and in a deeper sense. I love being part of a bigger unit, all working together to create one story, one piece of art. If I mess up, the whole piece looks bad; I love that responsibility, that purpose, that adrenaline. As an adrenaline junkie, I have to say that is the best feeling I've yet to experience.
And so every practice, I work for the performance. Nearly a year of practice, for 2 performances. All that work for that one feeling. But I do it. For many years now, I've done it.
Does anything give you this feeling? This adrenaline, this love, this meaning. Follow that passion, and trust me, you won't regret it.
